Is this strange

[dreamer]

I have this thing or things that I think are all related.....
last year for me was a horibble year (I mean execpt my concerts and time with my sister) I thought a lot about death and how peaceful it would be (I don't think I'm crazy) because things were so stressful.............I also became aware of time and its passage this year I'm thinking of time a lot and death still I am afraid of dieing early being murdered or in a crash things like that and I think about getting old and not being able to say "I woont die for at least 50 years" I'm losing time I'm not afraid of dieing just being dead like not being able to be concious and think you know. and I think if I had control of it ( when all that kind of stuff happened) it wouldn't bug me cause the thought(though I would never EVER EVER EVER) suicide doesn't bother me the control is comeforting.....
please I hope you don't think I'm cazy:hide: I'm not so DON'T THINK I AM:hide: but isn't that screwy( and no need to worry I wont ever comit suicide like I said I would NEVER EVER EVER EVER EVER do it:):D)

[mama twain]

Sweetheart, I don't think you're crazy, I kind of went through the same thing you just described. Last year was really hard, very depressing and stressful, and many times I thought things would be better if only I would die. I didn't want to die, but I knew things would be so much easier, no more worries.
Like you said, I wouldn't think of commiting suicide, because I know it's not worth it, we all have hard times, they might not end quickly but they do end..Time moves on and things get better. It's all part of life, it rains and shines. :) Just remember that you have your friends and family, and Shania to keep you going. No matter how hard things get life is ALWAYS worth living...Im not pushing anything on you, I'm just saying this is what I do..If I'm depressed or thinking about death, I always say a prayer, I personally believe in God, and I believe he is there to help me, it doesn't mean that I still don't have problems, because I do, but having him around makes things so much easier. I've been to the place where all I had was God, and at that moment is really when I realized that he was all I needed...I'm not saying I don't need my friends or family, I need them more than life, but they also have problems, they can't always be strong, so that is why I need God so much...Like I said, I'm not pushing God on you, I'm just saying if you have no resorts left say a little prayer in honesty and see what happens. ;) If you ever need anyone to talk you, you know you can talk to me. ;) and I hope this year is better for you hunnie.

[ka-ching]

Nah you're not crazy Misty!! Ive had the same thoughts too :)

[dutchy]

You're not crazy everybody goes through that phase sooner or later.
Just see life as differend phases you go through some are good, some are bad and some are worse.
Life itself is a phase you get born you life your life and when your time has come you die.
You can just try to make the best of life make your time here worth while.

If something bad or worse happens try to see something good in it - even something negative has something positif in it although it's hard to find in the moment you go through it.
It sounds strange but when something good happens try to see the bad in it too that will teach you to value things - you will appreciate everything in life more when you don't take things for granted.

And when you think about getting old again just think about the people who didn't get to become the age you are now and consider you're self lucky you get to become your age.
Last year somebody younger than me died and left behind a baby she had so much more to life for than me but wasn't given time
How can i justify complaining about getting my age when others don't live to get it

I must say that this is my opinion and many people think i'm crazy thinking it but i've learned to take life as it comes make the best of it and just pull my shoulders up if things go wrong and start again from the beginning.
Living isn't easy but you can try to make the best of it - for yourself because in the end you are the one you have to live with the longest.

[dreamer]

I do feel lucky and I forgot to add I've been "exposed" to a lot of things that freak me out and really I'm not even thinking about doing anything I just wish I coullld get it off my mind and yes life isn't easy but very often if you're not cautious there is no chance to start over:)

[dreamer]

and by the way I'm not complainging about it none of this is meant to be a complaint so don't look at it that way okay just an observation that applies to all people not just myself humanity can be very self centered but I'm trying not to be

[scotsman4shania]

NAH! you're not crazy dreamer. :)

We all go through bad times, as well as the good times. :)

Sweetheart, I don't think you're crazy, I kind of went through the same thing you just described. Last year was really hard, very depressing and stressful, and many times I thought things would be better if only I would die. I didn't want to die, but I knew things would be so much easier, no more worries.
Like you said, I wouldn't think of commiting suicide, because I know it's not worth it, we all have hard times, they might not end quickly but they do end..Time moves on and things get better. It's all part of life, it rains and shines. :) Just remember that you have your friends and family, and Shania to keep you going. No matter how hard things get life is ALWAYS worth living...Im not pushing anything on you, I'm just saying this is what I do..If I'm depressed or thinking about death, I always say a prayer, I personally believe in God, and I believe he is there to help me, it doesn't mean that I still don't have problems, because I do, but having him around makes things so much easier. I've been to the place where all I had was God, and at that moment is really when I realized that he was all I needed...I'm not saying I don't need my friends or family, I need them more than life, but they also have problems, they can't always be strong, so that is why I need God so much...Like I said, I'm not pushing God on you, I'm just saying if you have no resorts left say a little prayer in honesty and see what happens. ;) If you ever need anyone to talk you, you know you can talk to me. ;) and I hope this year is better for you hunnie.

Well said Katie :cool:

[Kristian]

Nah Misty, you're not crazy, but sometimes things aren't easy, but I'm sure you will go ahead, and everything will be fine for ya :supwink:

[matty]

You're not crazy. I think you would be crazy if those things had never crossed your mind (i think its part of growing up). Its good that you can have these thoughts it makes you aware of what you actually are and gives you drive to do things before it is to late.

[dreamer]

well when i stay up till 6:am its not.........:) I do that a lot:p

[MiniShaniaTwain]

you're not crazy sweetie! I've had the same thoughts all year long!

[mama twain]

Wow a lot of us here seem depressed.. j/k. ;)

[canoilers]

Its not strange, been there done that. You can't be human without acting somewhat like one. I've had that thought many times. I've even tried it, life gets to ya sometimes. You just have to lump it and move on.