Sad time

[aFinn]

Those that know me, know I'm a very private person and don't often share personal stuff. But since so many of you know about my cat Osku, I decided to make this thread.


I have had a difficult week, my cat Osku stopped eating and drinking on Tuesday, so we went to the vet's on Wednesday, Osku stayed there the whole day to get fluids and for tests. Unfortunately ultrasound revealed largely spread tumors in his intestants. This came as a big shock to me because Osku had not shown any signs of feeling ill.
I brought Osku home to see if he will start to eat and drink, but for the most part, to have him with me for last couple of moments. Osku did eat a little, but didn't start drinking. He was looking rather good though, since he got all those fluids and vitamins on Wednesday. But since he didn't start drinking, he would have started to suffer, so Friday morning I called the vet and at noon we started on our last journey together.
I am very sad at the moment, and shocked, I can't believe my beloved baby is gone. :cry:

[shaniagal]

I'm so sorry Marika...I'm speechless. All of my love is with you at this sad time.

[shania-little]

I'm so sorry Marika, I know how much Osku meant to you... :(
Last year same happened to my rabbit Twinky and I remember I felt so sad for a long time.
I wish we could do more for you... all I can say now is that I'm thinking of you..
Take care Marika... you made the right decision... try to think of all the good times you had together :hugs:

[aFinn]

Thanks sweeties. Thanks for your kind words. I hope in the days to come I can start thinking of the good times we shared, but right now I am just so empty and sad.

[shaniagal]

I know this is a kinda obnoxious question at a time like this, but do you think you'll ever buy another cat?

[aFinn]

I don't know yet. Some say it would be good to take a new pet soon after to help get through the pain, and others say one should wait till they are able to appriciate the new pet as new individual. Right now I don't know what I'll do.

[Terjeriuke]

Omg... :nono: that's really very sad... actually a week ago my cat has died too... :(

I'm soooooo sorry for u... :(

[Paul]

I'm so sorry Marika.......my heart goes out to you, I know you were a really good owner for Osku and I know what he meant to you. He couldn't have had a better owner or a better life, and you really looked after him so well.

I'm so sorry, remember all the happy times you had and remember everything was worth it. I'm thinking of you.

[Marine]

Oh, man...I'm very sorry to hear, Marika. It's hard to lose a pet you love. My thoughts are with you.

[Dale]

Very sorry to hear that.... I hope that your memories of Osku will be with you Forever and For Always. :)

[EilleenTwain88]

No voi ei... Koita kestää.
Mulla ainakin on sellainen kokemus lähipiiristä (veli), että kun he ottivat heti uuden koiran (vieläpä saman rotuisen ja värisen) niin siitä tosiaan seurasi ongelmia. Koirat kun olivat kuitenkin ihan eri luonteisia, mutta sitä oli vaikea muistaa kun "näytti ihan samalta"... koko suku (joka nähtiin heitä harvoin) puhuttiin koirasta sekaisin niiden molempien nimillä ainakin kolme vuotta!! Ei hyvä.

[aFinn]

Thanks guys. I'm very tired right now, but it's too early to go to bed, can't risk waking up after a few hours as this is still nap time for me. So I'm trying to keep myself occupied for a little while longer...

ET88: Juu, tuo kuulostaa juuri sellaiselta tilanteelta johon kukaan ei haluaisi joutua. Juuri nyt ei ole mielessä ottaa heti toista kissaa, vaikka naapuri tuossa minulle sellaista tarjoaa, sanoo että kokemuksesta tietää että uusi lemmikki auttaa. Se varmaankin sopii hänelle.

[Troll]

Sorry to hear about Osku Marika.

[cftennisnative3]

Ah, Marika, I'm sorry to hear about that :sad: .....I feel really bad, I do :( . I hope you heal.

[melli]

:cry: :cry: It's very sad to hear that...
I'm so sorry for you Marika.

[randine]

That's so sad... I am so sorry for you. :cry:

[matty]

I'm really sorry to hear that Marika :(
I've never had a pet to lose so I don't know how it feels, I hope you'll be okay.

[Shania's4life!!]

Sorry to hear that... :hugs:
Reminds me of when one of our dogs had to be put down due to a tumor.

[Afonso]

I know what you feel , I lost my dog 1 mounth ago too...I hope you'll be okay soon ...
and be stong ;)

[Blue_Firefly]

Marika,

Matty told me about this and I just had to log back into the Forums to tell you how deeply sorry I am for your loss :( I know Osku meant a lot to you. Losing a pet is like losing a family member and it's never easy to deal with :cry:
I don't know what else to say hun...I just wish I could help, but nothing I say will really help deal with the pain and loss you're feeling now :sad:

My thoughts will be with you though :) *hugs*

R.I.P. Osku :angel:

[Annette]

I am so sorry to hear this :sad: I know how much Osku ment to you. Cry when you need too and get it out, then think back on all the good times you had together.

Email if you need to talk, I'll try to get back to you asap.

[MiniShaniaTwain]

Awwww Marika, I am so sorry to hear about Osku. I know you loved him very much. I know how it is to lose a pet you love very much.

[Mizery1]

RIP Osku. My thoughts are with you Marika.

[canoilers]

You made me cry :cry: . I'm so sorry for you Marika, I feel for you and your loss. I wish there was something I could do too take your pain away. Being that your the first person too respond to my first postings on the forums, I've always had a big soft spot for you. My thoughts are with you at your time of need.

[Twain Fan 97]

My thoughts are with you too Marika. :sad: I already sent you a mail about it but I had a feeling you would make a special thread here & I wanted to be part of it. Osku was a wonderful cat & you gave him the best life Marika. He knew that you loved him. I know you feel empty & sad & I'm so sorry. :cry: I will miss him too because I know how much he meant to you. :(

**Caring Hug**
Ted

[Kristian]

I'm deeply sorry about this :( Losing a pet is so hard, especially for those who has lived with us for a long time.

[Cesdra]

Hi Marika,

I can really imagine how you feel right now because we had to put our cat down about 2 years ago or so. I was I think 7 when we got him and I almost don't remember a time without him. It was a very, very hard time. Especially the first few weeks after he was gone. I often caught myself trying to pet him when I thought I had seen him in the corner of my eyes and then it turned out it was just a shadow or a bag or whatever. That was really weird.
As for the question if you should get another one soon. We didn't do it. It took us about 8 months or so until we finally decided we were ready to have another cat. I guess if you once had a cat and you are a "cat-person" you just can't live without having at least one around you. :p But take the time until you feel ready. Don't get a new one unless you don't feel like you're not betraying Osku anymore - I know that is how we felt about it.

I know this is a hard time but just remember that you gave your cat the best possible life and that he was happy.

Ces*

[orry]

I am very sorry Marika about your sad loss. My cat had to be put to sleep just over three years ago, so I know what you are going through. Think about the great and wonderful times you spent together with your feline friend. Hopefully one day we will all be able to meet up with all of our loved ones who have passed away. My thoughts are with you at this difficult time.

[aFinn]

Thanks to each and everyone writing a note, I appriciate it very much. Today has been a tough day also, as mourning has just begun, it takes time.
Thanks for your thoughts and messages, they help a lot.


I know Osku meant a lot to you. Losing a pet is like losing a family member and it's never easy to deal with :cry:
I don't know what else to say hun...I just wish I could help, but nothing I say will really help deal with the pain and loss you're feeling now :sad: Yes, especially pet owners know what I am going through. Osku was a big part of my life, and he will live on with me in spirit always.

I know it's difficult to write responses to sad messages, but believe me, each and every message is very important, and I have received so many wonderful messages here and in private. It helps to work through the pain and sadness in writing, and reading messages.


I can really imagine how you feel right now because we had to put our cat down about 2 years ago or so. I was I think 7 when we got him and I almost don't remember a time without him. It was a very, very hard time. Especially the first few weeks after he was gone. I often caught myself trying to pet him when I thought I had seen him in the corner of my eyes and then it turned out it was just a shadow or a bag or whatever. That was really weird.
As for the question if you should get another one soon. We didn't do it. It took us about 8 months or so until we finally decided we were ready to have another cat. I guess if you once had a cat and you are a "cat-person" you just can't live without having at least one around you. :p But take the time until you feel ready. Don't get a new one unless you don't feel like you're not betraying Osku anymore - I know that is how we felt about it.

I know this is a hard time but just remember that you gave your cat the best possible life and that he was happy.

Ces*Yes, I've noticed that too, I think I see him in the corner of my eyes, sleeping on the couch. And I keep remembering what he used to do in certain situations.

Thanks for your perspective on getting another cat. I think I have similar thoughts about it.



Here is a poem/writing that I received, I of course cried my eyes out when reading it, but it really helped me a lot, I hope everyone who has lost a pet will find it comforting.



Just this side of heaven is a place called Rainbow Bridge.

When an animal dies that has been especially close to someone here, that pet goes to Rainbow Bridge. There are meadows and hills for all of our special friends so they can run and play together. There is plenty of food, water and sunshine, and our friends are warm and comfortable.

All the animals who had been ill and old are restored to health and vigor; those who were hurt or maimed are made whole and strong again, just as we remember them in our dreams of days and times gone by.
The animals are happy and content, except for one small thing; they each miss someone very special to them, who had to be left behind.

They all run and play together, but the day comes when one suddenly stops and looks into the distance. His bright eyes are intent; His eager body quivers. Suddenly he begins to run from the group, flying over the green grass, his legs carrying him faster and faster.

You have been spotted, and when you and your special friend finally meet, you cling together in joyous reunion, never to be parted again. The happy kisses rain upon your face; your hands again caress the beloved head, and you look once more into the trusting eyes of your pet, so long gone from your life but never absent from your heart.

Then you cross Rainbow Bridge together....

[shaniagal]

That Rainbow Bridge thing is so beautiful...:cry:

[pep_sesse]

Im soo sorry its hard to lose a pet they are like family and you love them as much as a family member:cry: :love:

[Shaniabomber99]

Awwww:( Sorry to hear about Osku, Markiza. I knew how much you loved him. My thought are with you. :kiss: and :hugs:

Carley

[Troll]

That is a great poem.

[Twain Fan 97]

Awwww..... that "Rainbow Bridge" story even brought tears to my eyes. I really like to think that it's true.... that somehow, someway, we can see those pets again that meant so much to us. I've always kinda believed that. :)

[Shaniabomber99]

Awwww..... that "Rainbow Bridge" story even brought tears to my eyes. I really like to think that it's true.... that somehow, someway, we can see those pets again that meant so much to us. I've always kinda believed that. :)

Yeh I agree with you there Tedderz.

Carley

[Roger]

Hi Marika. I knew about Osku but didn't know if you wanted to post about it. I have lost a pet before and I know how painful it is. No matter what, this will hurt for a while. If you can, try to see friends, or go see your mom. It helps to be with people who care. I see you have come here with it and I think that is a good sign. We care, Marika, and are thinking about you. I wish I could give you a hug.

[beddoe79]

Aww poor osku. I know what you are going through so if you want to talk you know where i am.

[Ammoguy]

:sad:

I´m so sorry to hear this, Marika! :( I know what Osku meant to You.. As I also have a cat nowadays, I happen to know how keen one can become on such a lovely creature as cat.. :cry:

[canoilers]

Hi Marika. I knew about Osku but didn't know if you wanted to post about it. I have lost a pet before and I know how painful it is. No matter what, this will hurt for a while. If you can, try to see friends, or go see your mom. It helps to be with people who care. I see you have come here with it and I think that is a good sign. We care, Marika, and are thinking about you. I wish I could give you a hug.
Very good post, listen to this man he's very smart.... well he's a senator fan but I guess we can't fault him for that. :p He's right though, anytime you need to talk I'm sure there'd be alot of people here who'd give you there ear. If you need to talk or what ever, you know where I hang out. :D

[aFinn]

Thank you for your messages, they have helped me a lot during this difficult time.

[FinnFreak]

:sad: No voi. Osanottomme täältä Vaasasta.

John - :(

[manmangler]

:cry: Tuohan oli ikävä uutinen. Osanottoni, koitahan pärjäillä.

[aFinn]

Kiitos pojat ja Jaana.

It is strange trying to get used to different routines *sigh*

I was listening to Anastacia's GH when coming home, and this song really struck me:

Anastacia - Pieces of a Dream

I thought I saw you late last night
But it was just a flash of light
An angel passing
I remember yesterday
Life before you went away
And we were laughing
We had hope and now it's broken

And I could see it clearly once
When you were here with me
And now somehow all that's left are
Pieces of a dream

And now I'm lost in restless nights
Just a whisper of the life
That we created
Shadows falling
I am calling

And I could see it clearly once
When you were here with me
And now somehow all that's left are
Pieces of a ...

The faded photographs
The frames of broken glass
The shattered memories
Time will soon erase
All these souvenirs
Falls from a thousand tears
But when I wake up you are a memory

We had hope and now it's broken

And I could see it clearly once
When you were here with me
And now somehow all that's left are
Pieces of a ...

And I could see it clearly once
When you were here with me
And now somehow all that's left are
Pieces of a dream

Pieces of a dream
Don't tell me it's impossible to save this heart of mine.

[~Lisa~]

I just read this and I had to say something..I'm really sorry about your loss, Marika. I obviously know how much Osku meant to you. Take care hun and stay strong through this hard time. I know what it's like to lose a pet..it's just like you're losing a loved one and a part of you. :sad: My thoughts are with you. :hugs:

[scotsman4shania]

Oh Marika, I have not looked in this site for a little while, so I have only just found out about your very sad news. :cry:

My heart goes out to you at this diffcult time. :(

But be safe and comforted in the knowledge, that Osku was so fortunate to have such a loving and caring owner, and enjoyed a truly happy life.... :)

Love from Michael

[Shaniabomber99]

Kiitos pojat ja Jaana.

It is strange trying to get used to different routines *sigh*

I was listening to Anastacia's GH when coming home, and this song really struck me:

Anastacia - Pieces of a Dream

I thought I saw you late last night
But it was just a flash of light
An angel passing
I remember yesterday
Life before you went away
And we were laughing
We had hope and now it's broken

And I could see it clearly once
When you were here with me
And now somehow all that's left are
Pieces of a dream

And now I'm lost in restless nights
Just a whisper of the life
That we created
Shadows falling
I am calling

And I could see it clearly once
When you were here with me
And now somehow all that's left are
Pieces of a ...

The faded photographs
The frames of broken glass
The shattered memories
Time will soon erase
All these souvenirs
Falls from a thousand tears
But when I wake up you are a memory

We had hope and now it's broken

And I could see it clearly once
When you were here with me
And now somehow all that's left are
Pieces of a ...

And I could see it clearly once
When you were here with me
And now somehow all that's left are
Pieces of a dream

Pieces of a dream
Don't tell me it's impossible to save this heart of mine.

Great Lyrics Markiza.

Carley

[aFinn]

Thanks again guys. I have been so greatful for all the support and sympathy I've received, very heartwarming. :kiss:

[canoilers]

:hugs: Its all we could do for a person with such a big heart sweetie. Can never leave an Angel like you out in the cold, it just wouldn't be right. :) I would've posted a poem for you but was unable to find it. Instead I leave you with a hug. :hugs:

[aFinn]

Thanks Seanny, I appricite the thought, and will enjoy the hugs :kiss:

[canoilers]

Anytime sweetheart anytime.

[Shaniabomber99]

:hugs: & :kiss: hope you are feeling ok Markiza and not feeling down today because we're all here for you sweetie :kiss:

Love
Carley

[canoilers]

I found it and I hope maybe you can find some sort of solace in the words.

Do not stand at my grave and weep,
I am not there, I do not sleep.
I am a thousand winds that blow,
I am the diamonds glints on snow,
I am the gentle autumn's rain.

When you awaken in the mornin's hush'
I am the swift uplifting rush.
Of quiet birds in circled flight,
I am the soft stars that shine at night.
Do not stand at my grave and cry,
I am not there, I did not die.

[captainCorr]

Aww..R.I.P. Osku..:sad: :love:

My (late) condoleances Marika..:(

[Shaniabomber99]

That's a sweet poem Connie.

Carley

[Little Shania]

Marika, I am so deeply sorry for your loss. I know how it feels to lose a pet. My cat passed away last September and she was around 20 or so years old which I had since I was about 2 years old and I felt so lonely and empty when she passed. This past July I finally got a new cat and it took me a while for me to get used to another one and now she is officially part of my family. I lost my dog about 2 years ago we had to put him down. It's just such a devastating time and it will take time to heal. *HUGS*! :love:

[aFinn]

Thanks again everyone, and thanks for the poem Sean :kiss: You're very sweet to post that for me.
I really appriciate everyone for their messages, sorry I haven't quoted everyone to say personal thanks, but it's very difficult time for me, hope you understand.

I think this week I had a relapse, perhaps the first week I was in a shock, and it really hit me the past weekend, cause it's been rather difficult since. I try to keep myself occupied by being online or doing other stuff, but everytime I move around, I am "looking" for Osku with my eyes. I guess it takes quite a while to get used to the situation.


This past July I finally got a new cat and it took me a while for me to get used to another one and now she is officially part of my family. I lost my dog about 2 years ago we had to put him down. It's just such a devastating time and it will take time to heal. *HUGS*! :love:Thanks Kellie :kiss:
I am also sorry for your losses :(
Thanks for the perspective about getting another cat. If I will ever get a cat, I'd like to appriciate him/her as themself and not as "replacement", so I will give it time and think hard about it.

[Little Shania]

Thanks again everyone, and thanks for the poem Sean :kiss: You're very sweet to post that for me.
I really appriciate everyone for their messages, sorry I haven't quoted everyone to say personal thanks, but it's very difficult time for me, hope you understand.

I think this week I had a relapse, perhaps the first week I was in a shock, and it really hit me the past weekend, cause it's been rather difficult since. I try to keep myself occupied by being online or doing other stuff, but everytime I move around, I am "looking" for Osku with my eyes. I guess it takes quite a while to get used to the situation.


Thanks Kellie :kiss:
I am also sorry for your losses :(
Thanks for the perspective about getting another cat. If I will ever get a cat, I'd like to appriciate him/her as themself and not as "replacement", so I will give it time and think hard about it.


You're more than welcome,Marika. :) Yes,I also felt the same way as you do. It took quite a while before my family and I were for the idea of having another cat. It does take time,but you'll get there eventually. :) More *HUGS* :)

[canoilers]

Thanks again everyone, and thanks for the poem Sean :kiss: You're very sweet to post that for me.
I really appriciate everyone for their messages, sorry I haven't quoted everyone to say personal thanks, but it's very difficult time for me, hope you understand.

I think this week I had a relapse, perhaps the first week I was in a shock, and it really hit me the past weekend, cause it's been rather difficult since. I try to keep myself occupied by being online or doing other stuff, but everytime I move around, I am "looking" for Osku with my eyes. I guess it takes quite a while to get used to the situation.


Thanks Kellie :kiss:
I am also sorry for your losses :(
Thanks for the perspective about getting another cat. If I will ever get a cat, I'd like to appriciate him/her as themself and not as "replacement", so I will give it time and think hard about it.I'm sorry I didn't reply too this sooner, I hope you can forgive me.

I'd do what I can for you, it wouldn't be right not too. You are such a sweet person and I'm glad to have meet you and had the chance too do it. You have helped me so much, with my sister and with things I've done bad or bad things I maybe shouldn't have said. The only thing that matters too me is that you feel better, if you ever need to P.M. somebody I want you too know you have an ear anytime I can lend my services. You don't have too, just know that its there anytime I can help or maybe I can't but the ear is still there. :hugs:

[aFinn]

Thanks Kellie and Sean :kiss:

[SHANIANUTS!]

....Marika...thinking too much sometimes hurts more than it helps...let your emotions tell you when it is time to move on....our new kitten is now 6 1/2 months old and is driving poor Noka batty like he did with the older cats when he first arrived on the scene...but there are signs they are bonding ...Noka keeps licking Raggety Ann even as she is trying to wrestle with him...hang in there and things will get better for you...